My Bimbofication & Descent into Evil

reader question 💭

you obviously started with a more submissive persona and was doing exceptionally well for yourself, so my question is:

how did you discover femdom and realizing you wanted to be a domme? how did you discover some of the kinks you talk about like chastity, feminization, etc

personally i just find your journey from your old content to what you do now fascinating

My initial persona or character was exactly that: a character. I thoroughly studied what people with a similar body and “niche” to me were doing and created something from that knowledge, my own frankenstein’s monster of porn.

It worked great! I bought the wig that looked the most innocent and “girl next door”, I stuck to the script in my videos and it was a completely compartmentalised part of my life. After work I took off my wig, and lived in the world with my hot pink buzzcut.

What in the world could go wrong?
The main problem, was that it wasn’t really me. Sure it was an aspect of me, but it was around 5% of my sexual interests that happened to align with the supply and demand of the market. There was a whole 95% of me I wasn’t expressing through my work.

My initial plan with porn was to do it for a while, then get the fuck out and pursue the scientific research I was interested in. It was naive, because I was naive.

To answer the second part of your question: I didn’t really “discover” the kinks like my digital narrative might suggest. I just peeled back the layers. I was practicing femdom when I was creating submissive content and it took a certain level of vulnerability and self expression to share that with the world. I remember dabbling in femdom sexting in my first month and explaining to the guy afterwards that my Domme side was something I was keeping for myself, away from content.

As you can see, my physical experience has changed a lot. Back then I was a clean slate, which most men find more attractive than someone heavily tattooed. Unfortunately I decided I wanted an Alice in Wonderland sleeve when I was 8 so that wasn’t going to work out.

It took some time to adjust but I’m actually far more successful now that I’m a Domme. Turns out tumblr doms and brain-rotted frat boys on twitter don’t particularly convert into the most loyal repeat clients. I like my work and clientele a lot more now.

Now I’m not sharing 100% of my soul on the internet currently. There will always be parts of my life that will never be documented by a camera and I like it that way. I would hate to have sex and kink as a whole feel like a work obligation.

It’s like a fountain. You have permission to fill your chalice, throw a coin, make a wish and enjoy what’s there for you, but all of my art trickles down from something within that can’t be captured or encapsulated on social media. You’ll just have to read my poems.

To live is to perform.